Oh Dear Santa

This month we over-used our internet quota, too much porn, youtube and download (more porns). So everytime I wanted to check the map with GoogleMap, it tends to hang on me. I hate this...... Another 5 days, and then I get to use the internet in a good condition. More porn!!!!!!

Come to think of it, it is another 1 month before Xmas. Means it is time to buy more clothes and having slimmer chance of getting a job? I don't know. I just came back from the interview, it sounded positive. So I am quite keen about tomorrow, they said they will reply to me tomorrow.

Anyway this is the list of the stuffs I HOPE I will get from Santa (which is me) this year! Last year I got an IPod Classic and some clothes as present. This year I hope to get fully clothes!!!!!! Okay okay this is my short list!

• Windsor Smith/Lacoste/Shubar walking shoe (first in the list)
• Industrie/Stussy shorts
• Levi Jeans (skinny)
• Stussy/David & Goliath/Quicksilver tees
• wide range of Everlast sportwear, from singlets to gym shorts
• Sexist/Calvin Klein/Aussie Bum undies
• Aussie Bum/Speedo swimming trunk

If possible, I would love to have this

• hat
• D&G sunglass
• swimming goggle

Okay, it is not very long right. I am being practical here! hehehehehe. If anyone would love to give any of them as a present, I am more than happy to accept. Oh since you guys are eager to give me presents, why not something like:

• IPhone
• Car (the one that I can drive)
• Apartment? or the first deposit for an Apartment?
• Plasma TV? I really need one to watch my porn movies
• Money?

So any of the presents will be kindly accepted personally or by mail. Send your present to Lex to the address below, and attach your name, address and relationship to Lex, and you will be expected to get a Thank You Letter in 10 working days. Thank you to those who are kind, others please remind yourself how unfortunate other homosapien are and that you are not doing anything to help these homo.

72 Truman Street,
South Kingsville, VIC 3015

How to keep me smiling?

Be aware. Be very aware. Cause this guy is going to rant on rubbish and pessimistic stuffs again..... Well, you guys should be well warned by the title itself!









I don't think I should stay at home at any given day. First, I tend to become very desperate over the job hunting thingy and start thinking pessimistically (which is not good). Second, I will probably be sitting at home, in front of the computer, either cracking my head to write a "perfect" cover letter, later to beat myself up because they want me to use Flash Player to complete the application, which I don't know why my computer won't run it after I had downloaded the latest version (result: Arghhhhhhhh........, you probably won't know what I was talking about). Thirdly, needless for me to elaborate any longer?

Back to the first reason. I will become desperate even I had an interview with the employer, which I think I fit perfectly with them. But then this pessimistic bug that is sucking my optimism dry is not helping. I was told I will be given a response after a certain day. And with that bug and my lack of patience in everything, I just felt the urge to say " This is the knife, and this is my heard, take that and JUST STAB on it", as quoted by Karen from Will and Grace.

But when I was out, I will start to worry, thinking how much time I have missed out writing resume. And what if the employer called when I was pumping my muscle and stress out of me in the gym or in the shower with few hot blokes? I know I know, I am pathetic......... But I can't stop thinking.

I have a terrible life, and I hope there will be some light. It is so bleak (not the room I am sitting in) and I just can't seems to get out of this bleak place. I was watching Step Brothers. Gosh, they extremely hilarious yet wrong. How wrong? Two 40 years old BLOKES, acted as if they are 12 years old....... And I shan't spoil your excitement if you have not watch that. If not, you know my pains (not that I am acting like a kid, I am trying to get myself out of this shithole).

It always end with a Fat Lady singing

I was extremely excited the past three days! Saturday was the Hair-Cut day which I have longed for awhile, and I was thinking that it could be my shopping day (after 2 months of no-shopping rules became effective). Sunday was Ammie's (my beloved Mother who give birth to me when she is only 1 years old) birthday outing and Today is my interview, which I was hoping to get through! Okay I am not going to tell you guys what happened over those three days, I am just writing this because I was excited.

As I was saying, when I was out Saturday there was actually the Christmas Parade going on along Bourke Street Mall. I wasn't very keen to look at people dress-up like clowns and bears waving at us with kids at every corner shrieking for them and begging their mom for them to hug those ugly-looking-bear-people..... The whole street was chock-a-block with peoples and crying babies...... I will never stand there any longer than 10 minutes. But then, it is when it hits me. Christmas (or Xmas, as we called it here, cause none of us really care it is a birth of JC, so maybe it is the birth of X!) is just around the corner. One year have passed so quickly and 2008 will be gone by the time I post this entry. So not true!

Since I am not a Christian/Catholic, Xmas doesn't really matters to me. For your information, people from Western countries don't celebrate Xmas like Asian do. No late night party during Xmas Eve or morning shopping on Xmas. Just to make this clear, cause every friend of mine will always say that it is so nice to spend Xmas in Melbourne. So not true. People just bloody go back to their home and eat dinner. It is bloody summer over here as well..... 45 degree days, so not prepared for that......

Here comes my main proposition. After Xmas? BOXING DAY!!!!!! Yes, it is not the day people box each other, but it is time for people like us to SHOP. OMG, I wonder whether someone will get an shopping orgasm from this? It is when price is Cut Cut Cut, clothes were Cheap Cheap Cheap, and, boys and girls are Hot Hot Hot!

Upon saying these few words, I really need to get a job. So I can Shop Shop Shop! Ending my long shopping hiatus....... This year I really need to improve my skills and start the celebration as early as possible. Though, I won't be there standing next to a triple size lady in front of the Myers Supermarket. No, neither will I be seen sleeping in front of that door the day before.

Besides, I am desperate to move out of my aunt's place. Alright, before people start shooting me saying it is Free Accommodation and Free Meals, I am someone who liked his Freedom A LOT. So I need money (that's the conclusion). And the solution? I need to get a job, OR, start working as a Rent Boy. I am not sure I can break through into that market, since every gay guys are hotter than I am........ And to become as hot as them, I need modal which I am currently short of........

Feeling a bit chatty tonight. No idea why......

Openness

I reckon, eventually people will abandon their blog or their blog writing. Why so? Well, when one started working, there is less amount of time for you to relax, let alone write blog. Even when you have the time to write this, it is hard, cause you will be so knackered, the last thing you wanted to do is to write about your boring, lifeless life. But I suppose girls will have the ability to complain still, even when they are damn buggered with work.

I am not saying this because I got a job. I am still looking for one....... But there will be a few Q/A procedure coming soon, so I am not complaining. Yes, although blog is a good place for someone to release their stress, but some people just don't like to tell any particular, intimate complains that they have. But this doesn't mean they are not open enough to discuss this matters to everyone. He/she/I might not think it is appropriate to shout out and be gay about it. But that doesn't mean I am conservative and have not accepted that.

For the past 1 week, I was in the stage of self-realisation and self-acceptance. I actually need to thank this phase of life, where I finally get to know myself more and realise my true identity.

This is not the end of my route. It is just the beginning of my new identity. Eventually, when the time is right! If you are curious, ask me personally what the heck I am talking about. Other than that, I would leave it here.

Rollercoaster

I have been neglecting this blog again. I am just not in the mood to write anything, well I have complain enough. I should just stop penning them down and do something else. Besides when my parents were here, I was freaking busy chauffeuring them around Melbourne and Victoria. It was a very tired 2 weeks, but all is good! Cause I know when I started working, I definitely won't have the time to bring them around like now. So I should be grateful as well. Hahaha.

My mood these days are crazy. Probably because I was tired and jobless. Hahaha. Yup, but it is not like it is bad all the time. It fluctuates like Melbourne's weather. That could be another reason my mood is so bad. Hahaha. When I got connected to some other people through some stranger I barely know, she is one of the employer who rejected me, but showed me a possible way to break into the working doorstep. I believe that sometimes there will be a slight opening in the job hunting atmosphere, you just need to squeeze your finger to pried open that opening (Gosh sounded so wrong, pun indeed!).

And with more and more bad news, my mood tends to slumber back to the negativity. I hope I can set myself free from this. Just booked myself with the Victorian driving test. I hope that will be good, for your information, driving in Australia is very strict, so you can imagine what the test will be like..... Okay, back to more resume writing and studying for the stupid Learner Driving test.